{"id":581,"date":"2016-06-08T01:12:19","date_gmt":"2016-06-08T01:12:19","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/darthjedi.logiodice.com\/?p=581"},"modified":"2016-06-08T01:12:19","modified_gmt":"2016-06-08T01:12:19","slug":"breaking-free-from-the-confines-of-the-mind-is-this-what-insanity-is-like","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/darthjedi.logiodice.com\/?p=581","title":{"rendered":"Breaking free from the confines of the mind… is this what insanity is like?"},"content":{"rendered":"

For years I trained my brain to engage in lucid dreaming<\/a>, I’ve played with hypnosis, NLP, paraliminal learning, photo reading, and other crazy reprogram and expand your brain exercises. \u00a0Last night I got what I deserved (I guess).<\/p>\n

As I awoke, but still asleep, I began to dream that I was programming my body in my brain. \u00a0I was pushing and popping instructions off the stack of my mind to create\u00a0my heartbeat, to expand my diaphragm, to push blood through my veins. \u00a0For a brief moment, I thought “this is awesome”, I’ve finally broken free of The Matrix<\/a>.<\/p>\n

However, very quick I realized that if I was controlling my autonomic functions, if I screwed up on the programming, my heart would stop, I would suffocate, my organs would die of asphyxia. Having this realization, I started to panic.<\/p>\n

Mind you, I was dreaming, but aware I was dreaming.<\/p>\n

So, I finally said to myself, this is silly, why panic, you can just wake up. \u00a0But I couldn’t. \u00a0I tried to stop thinking about programming my bodily functions. \u00a0But I couldn’t. \u00a0I tried to stop worrying about injecting the wrong opcodes. \u00a0But I couldn’t. \u00a0So then I started thinking, “Is this what happens when you go crazy”. \u00a0“Will I wake up, insane”. \u00a0“What if I can never get control over my mind again”.<\/p>\n

I always thought going John Nash<\/a>\u00a0crazy\u00a0wouldn’t be so bad, at least it would be in brilliance; but now, I couldn’t imagine being stuck in a world where I knew I was trapped in my own mind, but couldn’t break free.<\/p>\n

Have you ever started thinking so much that your head started to throb? \u00a0Burn? \u00a0Ache? \u00a0I felt like my CPU was overclocked, overheating and was about to core dump.<\/p>\n

And then I crashed – I don’t remember how it resolved, or how long it went on, but I woke up this morning… a little ragged, with vivid memory of the whole ordeal. \u00a0Happy to report, that I am still part of The Matrix, and I’m not John Nash insane.<\/p>\n

Maybe I should stop messing so much with my\u00a0brain. \u00a0Maybe I should take a break from technology.<\/p>\n

Nah. \u00a0Back to The Matrix.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

For years I trained my brain to engage in lucid dreaming, I’ve played with hypnosis, NLP, paraliminal learning, photo reading, and other crazy reprogram and expand your brain exercises. \u00a0Last night I got what I deserved (I guess). As I awoke, but still asleep, I began to dream that I was programming my body in … Continue reading “Breaking free from the confines of the mind… is this what insanity is like?”<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":582,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[6,21,28],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-581","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-diary","category-psychology","category-technology"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/darthjedi.logiodice.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/06\/brain-fixed.png","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"amp_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/darthjedi.logiodice.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/581","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/darthjedi.logiodice.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/darthjedi.logiodice.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/darthjedi.logiodice.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/darthjedi.logiodice.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=581"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/darthjedi.logiodice.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/581\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":583,"href":"https:\/\/darthjedi.logiodice.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/581\/revisions\/583"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/darthjedi.logiodice.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/582"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/darthjedi.logiodice.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=581"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/darthjedi.logiodice.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=581"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/darthjedi.logiodice.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=581"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}