{"id":192,"date":"2009-02-17T02:53:44","date_gmt":"2009-02-17T02:53:44","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/darthjedi.logiodice.com\/2009\/02\/17\/ThereAndBackAgain.aspx"},"modified":"2009-02-17T02:53:44","modified_gmt":"2009-02-17T02:53:44","slug":"there-and-back-again","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/darthjedi.logiodice.com\/?p=192","title":{"rendered":"There and back again\u2026"},"content":{"rendered":"

We made it home yesterday \u2013 after waiting 5 hours in the Haiti terminal, getting three hours of sleep in a Miami hotel, and another 2 hour flight and 5 hour drive. We are exhausted, and emotionally drained. To top it off, I think we picked something up on the way home, because we’ve been quite sick since Saturday evening.\n<\/p>\n

I want to talk to our girls so bad; I want them to know that we didn’t abandon them, that we are still alive, that we are coming back for them, but I can’t \u2013 yet \u2013 and even if I could \u2013 how much would they understand?\n<\/p>\n

It’s like these two people stepped out of a television show (Skype), made them happy for a week, showered them with love and affection, attention, and even physical possessions, that I’m sure they’ve had very little of \u2013 and then, like a dream, they woke up again one morning, and we were gone.\n<\/p>\n

Do they know we really exist, do they know we really do love them, do they know that we’re coming back for them. Do they?\n<\/p>\n

I was thinking when I got home, the famous words, of my most favorite movie: “The next time I go looking for my heart’s desire, I won’t look any further than my own backyard; if it’s not there, then I never really lost it to begin with.” – but that’s not entirely true \u2013 I am SO happy to be home, and the trip to Haiti has made me appreciate so much in my life that has gone unappreciated \u2013 I am truly a new person\u2026 but\u2026 I left part of my heart back in Haiti \u2013 so I now can’t really say that my heart’s desire is all in my own backyard\u2026 how very heart breaking\u2026\n<\/p>\n

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Lord, please tell me\u2026 when can I be whole again? L<\/span>\n\t<\/p>\n

\"\"\/ – Christella\n<\/p>\n

\"\"\/ – Fabienne\n<\/p>\n

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